Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Well...it's done

To introduce you to me in a few short sentences, I have been married for twelve years to a great man have two wonderful little boys ages 4 and 8, and I've been fat my entire life.  I am pretty sure I was born fat.  I'm not one of those people who was skinny and than one day had a baby and just never lost the weight, nope I have made the wrong choices my entire life. 

So after a long road that started with yet another New Years resolution I am banded!  I was banded on May 26, 2011 and honestly I didn't think the day would come.  My original surgery date was May 12th and unfortunatly I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism (yes, I know I wrote HYPER, and it's correct as ironic as it sounds!) and the docs were concerned about getting my heart rate under control before surgery.  I was officially on the pre op liquid diet for 26 VERY LONG days!  During the pre op diet I managed to loose about 28 pounds (sorry your going to have to wait to hear the starting figures for a little while) and since being banded have lost another 7. 
Currently I am on "mush" but am looking forward to starting my soft foods on Friday.  Right now I find things very difficult, because my weight loss has stauled.  I know that right now it is about the healing but hell I didn't get fat by eating tuna that I ran threw a food processor.  If I'm going to have some kind of success I need the scale to give me an ounce here and there.
When I go to see the surgeon on Friday what will he say about this "lack" of weight loss.  I think the scale is the one thing I fear the most, I hate going to the doctors because of the dreaded "weigh in" and the lecture that always goes with it.  Because hey, the doctor must think I enjoy being fat.  Isn't the highlight of your life walking up the stairs and getting out of breath...I know it's something I enjoy.
Okay, that's a bit of a rant, but I am nervous for this appointment.

So I started this blog so that I could have something to look back on.  So that I can remember the struggles that will get me to the new banded me.  I am so ready for this change, I need and deserve this!

I have a big goal I want to loose 120 more pounds, yup that's a HUGE number!  So I'm going to break it down.  By the end of the summer, labor day weekend, I want to weight he same as I did the day I walked down the isle, so 39 pounds to my first mini goal.  I'm not sure if this is realistic or not, but I'm going to die trying.

"God grant me the serentity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference"